Bob H's Story, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (M.E.)
Living with ME/ Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is like playing the lottery
every day. Very rarely do you win.
I have suffered with ME for last 12 years. Up until the problems
first started I had a thriving accountancy practice and had a good
lifestyle with all the usual trappings. Nice home and family - things
couldn't be better.
I have subsequently ended up with Chronic Depression, of which
I am now seeing a clinical psycologist. She is very helpful.
I battled with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (M.E.) for about 5 years
and even in that time I opened a residential care home. I constantly
fought against it. But by mid '98 I eventually had to put my hands
The M.E. and the depression
on top finally took its toll.
I closed the home and since have drifted in oblivion on
state benefits. What a culture shock, for me! But more so
for my family, that I had provided so well for for all those years.
I am still very angry and frustrated. But I am beginning to realise
that what has gone on in the past is
just that - its the past. And I
have to move on and work within my limitations.
What people around you, and close to you don't
seem to realise is that your self worth
/ self-confidence / self-respect has been shot to bits. It's
a daunting task to try and rebuild it again with a flat battery
energy level. Its so easy to say keep
positive. But you have to,
otherwise it will grind you down to unthinkable levels - and I've
been there too.
All you can do in my opinion is to keep looking for something that
you can do career-wise to give you back something that you once
had your self-respect/ self-image that you were happy with.
I have been looking at starting to write - self publishing - but
you know what the biggest stumbling block is? To find something
that I am passionate about. The last 12 years of my lfe have destroyed
that. But you know, I keep saying to myself that it's
all happened for a reason and my true voctaion will show its hand
eventually - I'm now here to wait for it to arrive.
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